Frustrations

So I'm getting to the point of complete frustration. I'm a planner. And I'm impatient. Neither is good for pregnancy. The doctor's office won't even schedule my ultrasound. I have to wait for them to call me. Is it really that hard to set an appointment? I'm not even asking for one soon, just at my 18 week mark when the doctor said to get in. So not only do I not have an appointment, no matter when that appointment is set I still have to wait at least another month to find out the sex. It's so hard to plan ahead when you don't know what you're planning for. Yes, there are plenty of things that are unisex. We've done the registry for that. And yes either way we want the bigger things to be unisex so we'll be ready for the next child. But at the same time, there are things that want just for a girl or a boy. I'm waiting to start planning out the nursery, buying the right fabrics to make cordinating things. Just buying clothes is really hard when you don't know what to buy for. Yeah, there are neutral things out there, but not that many.

More frustartion is just being sick. I'm at 14 weeks, 5 days and am still struggling with the morning sickness. Still on medication just to make it through the day. And some days, I don't make it. I'm tired of vomitting and just feeling aweful 90% of the time. Sometimes I just break down and cry because it's so overwhelming always being sick. And not just being sick, but the fear of being sick. Just knowing if I don't wake up and take medication, I won't make it an hour. Knowing that if I don't eat something small every 2 hours, I'll be sick. And now on top of it all, I'm getting my headaches back and the migraines. Which again, led to more sickness. If I go through all of this and not have a girl, I'm really going to be pissed.

More frustation is not having the space to have a real nursery. The uncertainity of not knowing if we're going to be able to move before the baby comes is incredibly stressful. I want to set the room up as soon as I can and get it ready, but there's no space. I have to pack up the guest room and figure out where to store it all. I can put the dresser in the basement, but I really don't want to keep a bed down there in case of mold growing. And then if we do get the 3 bedroom apartment and I've moved the bed somewhere else, then I'll just have to move it again and that's not very convient either. And I need a place for parents when they come and stay with us, which I know my parents will be at least once before the baby is even here.

So I'm going to end on an upbeat note. I am very happy about having the baby, it is just stressful sometimes. We have started a nice collection of things, thanks in a large part to family and friends. We did buy a few things, it's hard to resist not to. And as soon as I can make it up to my parents area, there will be more. That is the best part about having kids after everyone else. They want to get rid of all the stuff that they don't use and is just taking up space so they give it to us. I love it. :)