4 more months to go

I'm definately feeling more pregnant. There was such a long period of not feeling it at all that it's all hitting me at once. Sleep is limited now. My hips hurt no matter what I do. My back is awful. And I wake up to pee multiple times a night. On top of all that, my brain is racing with ideas for the nursery, being able to pay bills, what to do about daycare, etc. And I can't shut it off.

I keep going shopping. It's so bad. I know that I shouldn't be out spending the money but it's so exciting not to. I already bought outfits for her to wear to my brother-in-laws wedding when she'll be a month old. And for the rehearsal dinner. They were just so cute I couldn't not get them! I got an extra one too, so in case she pukes or whatever on one, there's a backup ready. We are making out really well on the nursery. Since we are able to use furniture that we already had, and we are being given the crib, we're putting out $400 for everything else. To redo a room from scratch, that's really cheap. The biggest expensive was the curtains, half the budget went to that.

Last Sunday Gary and I spent the day out in the sun. It was a perfect day, except I am realizing that being pregnant and summer aren't a good mix. So much hotter than I used to be. Which is another reason sleeping is difficult. We have an A/C and I still get hot.

I think it's finally sinking in how much I have actually planned for us to do in the upcoming weeks. We have 6 free weekends from now until the baby's here. I'm hoping I didn't take on too much and I won't be too worn out to enjoy everything. Work is getting more difficult. 8 hours on my feet a day is a lot. I cherish my 10 minute breaks. I just go and sit, put my feet up when I can. Speaking of feet, they're starting to swell. And not only my feet but my fingers too. In part cuz of pregnancy and part cuz of humidity. Either way, I don't know how long I'll be able to wear my rings for. I can't wear my wedding ring right now. 3 of the stones are loose and I don't want to risk losing them.Now it's a matter of saving up the money to get it fixed. I need the one that I lost, get the rest tightened, and they want to replate it cuz it's getting so worn from work. Basically work is ruining everything. I am hoping that I will be able to go down to part time post maternity leave. Crosses my fingers daily that we can save enough money and get our bills caught up/paid off before then so that I can make enough to do partime and be home with my little girl. That's all I want. If I could work 3 or 4 days a week and have the rest of the time with my little one, I'd be very happy.